why why why... ramblings of the insane.

sometimes i wonder why it is that these days, i get so easily irritated at the little things that usually never used to bother me. things that happen or don't happen just push me over the age so easily and i react without thinking. and then i end up feeling guilty for days after i snap. why have i become such a detestable person? why can't i just let this just wash over me and continue smiling like nothing can faze me? why can't i just forgive and just accept that people make mistakes since no one is perfect? why can't i live the way i have lived my other 24 years of my life? why can't i just forgive you already since not being able to do so is tearing me apart? why can't i be better than this?