The sky's the limit!!

Finally gonna get one item ticked of my bucket list if everything goes well. Cant wait for end August. I'm so glad I went on the dive trip with mich and got to meet some like minded people =)

Knowing

I would love to wake up one morning happy that I'm off to work and knowing for sure that I've made the right choices in life and I'm who I was meant to be. It's a pity that no amount of books or equations can solve this and everyone's as close to this as Michael Douglas was when he said the answer was 42

Cardboard Bike... awesome.

Izhar cardboard bike project fromGiora Kariv& on Vimeo

can't believe my weekend is over in 3 hours.

the weekend certainly passed in a flurry and every time i had a breather i couldn't believed how much time had passed and how much time i had left.

Friday 18 03 hrs
- ran out from the clients place when work was over. made my way to climb asia

Friday 19 00 hrs - 21 00 hrs
- Experience Climb @ Climb Asia... group of 8 head hunters. haha. first surprise of the night was that Norman. one of the HR in my previous job with FCL was one of the participants. they were a nice bubbly bunch, for working adults. although a bit too overwhelming at times. cool nonetheless even if most of them couldn't really climb other than Irwan, the one who spearheaded it.

Friday 21 30 hrs - 24 00 hrs
- Met up with Germs and some of the climbers for drinks @ Lucky 13. it was chill even if there were the occassional awkward moments cos D-ex was there. lol. couldn't resist the play on words. i still can't look him in the face. I dunno what I'm afriad of. but whatever I guess. maybe time will numb.

Saturday 07 30 hrs
- body clock being a bitch

Saturday 09 30 hrs
- roll out of bed

Saturday 10 30 hrs
- hunt for minion 1's present

Saturday 13 00 hrs - 15 00 hrs
- BCT @ Climb Asia... second class =) i really do love this bunch. they're quite enthusiastic and they pick things up quite fast. even if it's 1 guy and 9 girls. they dynamics still made it fun. I will miss them i guess. but hopefully they will be inspired and motivated enough to come back and climb

Saturday 16 00 hrs - 20 00 hrs
- Made waffle batter at Gf's place
- Read up for tuition
- Napped
- Mahjong... started with a 5-tai zhi mo XD

Saturday 20 30 hrs - late.
- Minion 1's 21st party. dessert spread was awesome. getting her

Sunday 08 00 hrs
- roll out of bed

Sunday 09 00 hrs - 09 40 hrs
- drive to ulu Jurong West

Sunday 10 00 hrs - 11 30 hrs
- combined science sec 1 tuition. the kids are starting to grow on me. and are a lot better to handle but it's not enough to overule the insane commute.

Sunday 12 00 hrs - 15 00 hrs
- Kai Hui's wedding. the videos were really awesome. the wedding was well plan. and she honestly looks so happy despite all the tiredness i felt so happy for her too.

Sunday 15 30 hrs - 18 00 hrs
- Climbing @ Onsight with the climb team peops and benjamin and matthews from diving. it was fun. really. getting them and charles interested in climbing. it does motivate me to climb harder which is cool as i have been rather slacked the last few months. it was good to finally catch up with matthews again. travelling with him in the one week break might still work out and it seems like sky diving and road tripping in sydney might happen! i'm pretty excited and i really really hope it works out somehow.

Sunday 18 30 hrs
- Dinner @ Old Airport
- was fun talking with charles he is quite interesting and it's always nice to talk to fresh blood who are psyched about climbing
- also got the after climb physio from yb ^^

Sunday 20 00 hrs
- driving back. gave benjamin a lift to aljunid mrt. surprise no 1. he asked if i was attached. surprised no 2. he asked if he could asked me out on a date. considering it's only the third time i'm seeing him. it was rather fast i must say. is this usually the way things go? nonetheless. i told him i wasn't looking to be in a relationship but was ok with just hanging out and he seemed cool with that which is great since he is quite a nice person to talk with as i did learn on our last outing. just hope he's really ok with it. i do wonder if driving a manual is really such a rare thing in a girl though. can't remember how many times i got the comment of "it's so cool that you drive stick" haha. although this time when i heard it i followed up with a lovely follow up by going up the curb in the carpark. typical singaporean. cannot praise lol.

oh wells. there goes my weekend. back to work again tmr!

I don't want to be angry or irritated with you or the situation or whatever anymore. I just wanna get over all the unpleasantness and get on with life.

To do that it means that I will have to forgive you (since you will not let me forget) so that I can forgive myself and move on with my head held high.

 

It shall be done.  It will be done.

 

Although I must admit that I am pretty much lost as to how things should proceed from here. I can't keep pretending you dont exist can I? I doubt I'll be that lucky.

Stop being such a girl and get your emotions under control for goodness sake. It has been a whole week and nothing's being achieved while your are moping about. Your life has never been better so just smile like you always had and get a grip.

My greatest fear is in knowing that I could have achieved my dreams but did not do so because of my own insecurities.

melly.. just keep doing what makes you happy! :) climbing.. reading..whatever.. - wise words from an alcoholicfatty

You know how they say that your iPod playlist says a lot about you? Well I don't have one but I was quite amused at the first song that came up this morning when I plugged in. I've never even heard if this song before so it's probably one of my brother's. After last night's whatsapp convos it seems like my even my phone is trying to tell me something and cheer me up.

---
Sara Bareilles
Gonna Get Over You lyrics


Goodbye
Should be sayin' that to you by now, shouldn't I?
Layin' down the law that I live by,
Though maybe next time

I've got a thick tongue,
Brimming with the words that go unsung
Simmer then the burn for a someone,
A wrong one

And I tell myself to let the story end,
My heart will rest in someone else's hand
My 'why not me?' philosophy began,
And I say

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh how I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

Maybe is a vicious little word that can slay me
Keep me when I'm hurting and make me,
Hang from your hands

Well, no more,
I won't beg to buy a shot at your back door
If I make it at the thought of you, what for?
It's not me anymore

And I'm not the girl that I intend to be,
I dare you darling, just you wait and see
But this time not for you but just for me,
And I say
Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh how I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,

Someday, say it's coming soon
Someday, without you
All I can do
Is to get me pass the ghost of you
Wave goodbye to me
Won't say I'm sorry
I'll be alright
Once I find the other side of someday

Ooh, how'm I gonna get over you?
I'll be alright, just not tonight
Someday, oh how I wish you'd want me to stay
I'll be alright, just not tonight,
Someday

visit to the Arts Science Museum

Went to the Arts Science Museum today with Benjamin (Yanlings friend from the diving trip) and I must say the two exhibits were rather interesting. Spend a good three hours exploring both the Harry Potter exhibition and the Andy Warhol exhibition. I must say I preferred the latter... Most probably cos I never really did watch the movies for Harry Potter. But at least I'm now partially motivated to actually go catch them =P.

I quite like the exhibition on Andy Warhol, seeing his works and how it evolved over time. loved the bright solid colours. his play with shadows. and the mix between random quirky work of arts and things we see everyday. Pop Art (?)

"In the future, everyone will be world-famous for 15 minutes."

As a person, he seems rather confusing to me. Going from brightly coloured butterflies to themes on suicide and then to commercial products. His fascination on self portrays seem to portray some form of narcism though. On a different note, I love how he leaves interpretation of the mood of the subject to the colours he has used on the same subject. His piece on the sunset which he protrayed 632 times in different colours was just surreal.

Had an enjoyable Sunday. totally atypical as it involved no climbing or swimming or nuahing. i'm glad that i lived by the "just say yes" code and decided to check out the HP exhibition as it led to such an interesting afternoon/evening.

I finally stepped into MBS. it was amazingly huge ass. and i really loved how open it felt with all the glass ceilings and windows. the sampans were hilarious after one has seen the venetian's gondolas. too bad it was too crowded and the three hours in the museum already tired me out or i wouldn't mind checking out the entire area instead of just getting a glimpse.

oh wells. good company makes for an interesting sunday. even if there were small awkward moments like saying goodbye and promising to meet up again for whatever. Has it really been that long since I made a new friend I wonder

I'm ready to start again !

... Now I just need to figure out how...

ramblings: weekend dive getaway

went diving this weekend with mich and it turned out to be quite restful for the soul and i feel recharged even though my face is hurting from the sunburn from being and idiot and falling asleep in the sun on the boat ride back.

the group was one of the smallest i've been with but everyone was really quite friendly but not overwhelming.

the instructors were nice and funny. as with most of the dive instructors i've met so far. they smoked way too much than what i though was professiona though but somehow this seem to be a diver thing. wonders if smoking helps with their lung capacity or something...

poor mich was so seasick that i felt so bad for her. hopefully she'll find her sea legs one day if not next time she might need to stick to dive sites that do not require long boat rides. it was funny hearing the word "dazed and blur" being used on mich by the instructors cos that's clearly far from what mich is usually. it was funny too when they asked if mich ever smiled lol. 

then there was yanling, haha. junior in guides who i probably haven't seen since secondary school. she's still feels the same i would say. but i guess somethings never change and stick with you forever.

then ben who was yanling's fren who's a rather interesting character. he gives off the serious vibe on the outside but there's this underlying joker in him which kind of seems like a mismatch that i'm always thrown off a little when i talk with him. refreshing nonetheless. surprisingly, we bonded over mousehunt.

didn't get to talk much with yanping but she seems hardcore with her mma and garang attitude.

the two army boys were quiet for the most part and still stuck in that phase where all the little boys go through.

and then there was my dive buddy matthews! haha. i didn't know his name for the longest time (since i was too embarrased to ask for it) until i saw his dive bag. he was quite a nice dive buddy. talkative and outgoing but not too overwhelming. quite good bouyancy control and clear headed enough to help me keep my calm during the dives. oh. he climbs too! or at least he used to. hopefully he'll take up my offer for him to come climbing with us. would be fun to push someone new to be more interested in climbing. in mich's world... a new "minion" =)

gary the instructors was full of interesting stories too. not just about diving but everything from his job as a glass seller to his 21 days nz obs adventures. sounds like someone who's really living the life.

starting to wonder if i should take up rescue diver. would be good to have a back up interest to fall back to since i've seen to have reached my limit in climbing.

The path one must travel

Fragile and fickle
Turned by the smallest breeze in the wind...
Altered by a whimsical thought...

one crazy week

i'm glad it's finally monday and i can get a bit of a rest in the office. it's been a hell of a week and i'm exhausted to say the least

in the short span of four days, I have...

- taken up an offer for a new job
- and similarly tendered my resignation in the old one
- talked two ex-managers into being my character referees
- explained to my two bosses why I needed this change
- showed Ima the sg way of life and letting her come to her own conclusions about crazy singaporeans
- swim / climb and go about whatever routine stuff I do
- cycled overnight till my ass and thighs hurt
- go shopping with the sis
- slept about a total of 4 hours a night except for saturday where it was 1 hour...

add on to the fact the weekend before that was spent sniffing paint and i'm amazed i lasted till last night 22 00 hrs before i crashed.

life rocks but i'm getting old.
can't wait till diving this weekend.

signing off.