Helpless dilemmas

What do you do with someone who can't pace?

Good enough

If you're good enuff, people wouldn't cry
If you're good enuff, people wouldn't suffer
If you're good enuff, people would be happy
If you're good enuff, you would be happy

Sunk cost and obnoxious beings

Sometimes. It's not worth fighting a battle that you know will not change the outcome of anything. Yes, the perpetrator might get away with his tail in the air and a smug look on his face knowing that once again he got away with it. But in the end, investing more will just be digging a deeper hole for yourself and the only one smirking would be him who pushes you into that hole. Let him strut around in his own pile of shit and be the smarter person and leave while you can to find better smelling patches of green. In this manner, you can take pride in knowing that you used your time to improve your circumstances.

Choices

Sometimes I wonder how people do it.

Juggle passion for what you do and what you hope to achieve, against love for those you hold dear and wish to spend forever with, against the need for sanity and self preservation.

How do you know if you're are capable or worthy enuff to hold on to it all and push it all towards perfection? Or are you just normal and capable of just choose 1 and striving to be the best you can be.

Sometimes I do regret shedding off my naive approach to life. Where I had believed that anything is possible if you want it badly enough. As scepticism and cynicism sets in when ones life starts ticking away before you.. You're forced to choose and prioritize and give up on things you feel will no longer be worth your while. You're forced to recognised that you're just human with similar limitations to all the rest who are out there with you.

And when that happens...

Moment of frustration

Decided to revive this blog a little as it seems like I need an outlet... what with (1) FB not being the most appropriate channel given how public it is and (2) my relationship with pen and paper writing not seemingly going too well recently.

Why the need to rant here? The trouble in being in such a small community is that you hardly have space for yourself and your thoughts when most of it is under scrutiny most of the time. You tend to keep everything bottled up and put on a "brave smiling" front for everyone and keep chanting to yourself that "everything will be all right", mostly out of necessity so that things can keep moving and people don't notice what a fragile ecosystem you have going there. If you want to shout and cry and tell the rest of the world to just fix itself... the only way you can do it is by locking yourself in the some dark space somewhere to cry angry tears of frustration about the things you can't change or go against.

While I would like to say that I do have a high tolerance for most things done to me or affecting me. The recent few weeks have been a barrage of incidents and events that have pushed me over or at least really close to the edge. While I've heard that this is all part of the start-up small business emotional roller coaster... I do hope that at some point I can manage it and manage it well... and that yes, everything will be OK once again.

... maybe I should consider starting to chronicle my thoughts a little again to just keep myself on track and sane.