Moment of frustration

Decided to revive this blog a little as it seems like I need an outlet... what with (1) FB not being the most appropriate channel given how public it is and (2) my relationship with pen and paper writing not seemingly going too well recently.

Why the need to rant here? The trouble in being in such a small community is that you hardly have space for yourself and your thoughts when most of it is under scrutiny most of the time. You tend to keep everything bottled up and put on a "brave smiling" front for everyone and keep chanting to yourself that "everything will be all right", mostly out of necessity so that things can keep moving and people don't notice what a fragile ecosystem you have going there. If you want to shout and cry and tell the rest of the world to just fix itself... the only way you can do it is by locking yourself in the some dark space somewhere to cry angry tears of frustration about the things you can't change or go against.

While I would like to say that I do have a high tolerance for most things done to me or affecting me. The recent few weeks have been a barrage of incidents and events that have pushed me over or at least really close to the edge. While I've heard that this is all part of the start-up small business emotional roller coaster... I do hope that at some point I can manage it and manage it well... and that yes, everything will be OK once again.

... maybe I should consider starting to chronicle my thoughts a little again to just keep myself on track and sane.